Too much Starbuckssssss

I'm sure you just read the title and thought, Um nope. But it's true! I had a almost black iced coffee at 9, and then another black coffee with caramel at 4. So basically I'm sitting in my hotel at 2:30 am., solving all the worlds problems. I wish... Even though I just watched this creepy documentary on history channel about dumping oil into the coast of Florida. (Basically I'm never going Into the ocean again) And that was completely unrelated.. My mind is like a blender I swear. I really want pizza right now too.. Ever had those nights where you rethink every decision and thing you didn't say or do? ( I kind of wish I had bought this Michael kors black trench I saw last week) I'm having one of those! Maybe I'm just overly introspective y'all .. (I got that from my southern friend. I'm as New York as they come) My favorite quote, or one of them is by C.S Lewis, where he says "There are much, much better things ahead, than any we may leave behind". Or something like that. I just hope for the grace and strength to let go of those things that aren't meant for me. I recently quit my job because of a harassment issue, and I have to admit I was very mad. Mad at God, I really thought this was the perfect job, and I had just been Promoted. I thought why now???? I thought this was your plan? Do you ever think we convince ourselves that things are right for us because we want them to be so badly? But after three days of pouting and remembering how much I hated filling out applications, someone told me that sometimes God pulls us out of situations because he knows how much worse it is going to get. Maybe that was my situation! You never know. Well, I should probably try to sleep, at least a little ... Xoxoxoxoxoxoxo, Gold. 

P.S. This was the first one.. At least it was good!! And it was soy *pats self on back*